i hav been lazy to blog anymore...
im juz fed up wif lyfe n skul...
haiz..
my week was ok la..

hari jumaat alek dgn mama bear...
then lpk jap kat daerah aku...
die nk pi mit matair dier pat tamp..
lps die mit matair dier aku alek umah...
then maen2 dgn adam lps tu online..

hari sat igtkn nk turun esplande..
tk jdi ar psl ade org tk kasi turun sane nnti dier mara...
so ku mit cus ku pat wlds....
lpk2 jap then alek umah nenek...
then mlm aku pi espalnade jap je lmbt kul 10pm..
tpy ku tk bilg ita..
hehe oopss sry ..
in my mind i guess u hav gone hm...
tgk firework?
tk dpt dah bis..
lpk tu aku alek lps da lpk2..
then kwn ku pi mos dgn member2..
ku mls nk ikut nnti nenek ku bising..
so da alek tgk cerite troy dpt tgk sikit je psl smpai umah kul 12am..
haha..
then ku tdo...

narie...
ku agun kul 10am...
mls tdi nk agun tpy agun jgk..
lps tu mandi mkn tgk tb..
then alek dari wld kul 4.30pm...
pi causeway ponit jap dgn kak ku..
then naek 168 alek umah
sampai umah kul 6 lebih...
then tukar aju..
mkn gosak aju skul..
then maen comp...

tkde keje nk uat n takde org nk chat dgn.
so aku at last blog jgk...
aku akan tukar url link ku...
ku tknk org bace blog ku lgy r..

psl dlm hidup ku..
aku tkde kwn..
kwn semua bckstab ku...
kate je kwn pat skul//
tpy nv mls ku nk cerite r..
suke hati dorang r nk uat ape..
lau nk kwn kwn la..
lau tkn nvm ku tk ksah...
bile perlu tlg aku aru cari aku..
lau tk taruk aku ketepi mcm ku tk exsit...
haiz..
ape la nasib bdn..
aku tahu la aku tk fit in the group coz im diff..
but nvm la..
my frend tat i hav know for 4 year also hav change since
dier ade kwn baru nk cerite dgn..
lau dier tkde kwn aru ajak ku kuar...
psl kwn die tu susah nk kuar..
haiz tpy tkpe la..
kau boley dgn dier n lupekn ku jek la...
lgy satu da knl uat 2 tahun...
tahun nie laen kelas..
then da ade kwn aru n aku tk bbual dgn dier sgt..
da lupekn ku..
biler drg gaduh cari ku utk selesaikn..
aku masih tlg..
kwn punye psl..
haiz...
tpy dorang semua prh ke pikir perasan ku?
ape aku da prh uat kat drg?
haiz..
ape ley uat...
terime je la...
haiz...

tu je utk narie mls ku nk tpye panjang2 lgy..
bye
tc

today wen to skul took the mrt n bus to skul
was lazy to come skul juz now..
then wen i reach skul it is goin to rain..
n i forget to bring my jacket..
at mly lesson i was freezin cold at the ava theater..
haha..then there no eng lesson..
we had to do survery..
then go recess...
after tat math lesson..
i fail my math test..
n after skul nid to do retest.
haha..
tat wat happen at skul..
i lazy to type long2..
wen hm wif shameera..
tmr i got two test phy n ss..
argh lazy to study..
haha

tmr my syg birthday..
haha..she turn 18..

ita i feel pity for u..
i dunno how to hlp eu..
but juz now wat i tell u is wat i tink n hlp u out..
so dun be sad kk syg..
i dunnola wat ur guy is tryin to do by sayin all of tat..
but dun worry he will cool down ..
n he love u okie syg..
cheer uo..
btw ur not fat
ur r pretty n cute kkays..

hey sry for the not bloging..
i was to lazy n tired..

sunday was my birthday,
i wen eat at pizza hut n my family at marina sq..
after tat me walk all the to bridge road..
then mkn again..haha
then walk2 for walk then wen hm
then walk at tamp for a while..
then near my hse got flee market..
wen n coat for my sis n a beg for myself..
then hm

on mon wen to saf aunt hse..
take cake..then took taxi to skul..
ask mr chim to keep the cake for us..
then l.30pm we celebrate mr imran birthday..
it was okie n fun..
but my classmate haven pay..
how????
i nid to paid saf back..
haiyo i gonna die...
then mly act was cancel..
coz shaheed tok back at cikgu naz..
watave la i hate her la..
then reach hm adam was not at hm
my mum told me tat he was downstair playin
so i wen down withoyt changin my clothes
i feed hym n play wif hym haha..
tat wat happen..

then today tue..
the day was okie la..
but it was cold..
in th emorning i kene nag by mr asmadi coz of ytd..
i hate ppl nag2
i ear so pain..
he nag 30min sia,
the mother tounge nv great her
watave la..
then i kene stay back until 6pm today
coz mr asmadi took my ezlink..
but i was release early a bit at 5.40..
go reach hm at 7.00pm..
play wif adam,..
wen to bath..
then eat n play comp..
i had a fight wi fmy guy since i dunno wen la..
i tink our realationship hav ended..haha
kkays bye..

today is thursday,
it was an okie day for me la..
some of lesson bored sum okie..
today act was chem mr sng came to class..
ahhui had her oral..
she said she cant do..
but im sure she can do it..
hav faith in urself kk..

u noe wat..
mr imran said tat $15 for the chalet is to much..
wat the hell..
but we try to reduce it la to ard 10 or 12 buckk..
but they nid to contribute sumthing la..
haiz..later can tok tingys out wif shaheed again lor..

tmr is frin n 18 of july..
it is my one month wib hym..
bt im not hapi..
haiz dunno y la..
i feel lyke..
haiz dunno la...
wat to do..
juz gfo wif the flow la..

my birthday is on the 20 july on sun..
thought of goin out wif my friend on sat..
but i tink all of them dun want.
but its okie..
i understand..
they hav their own lyfe n fwen to go out wif..
im find wif it..
haha
kkaes..
tats all for now..

wen hm early today..
was not feelin well..
had stomsch cramps..
i wen hm straight n i wen to slp..
wake up at 2pm..
then i hlp my mum take care for adam..
then i watch tv..
do nothing but lyin down coz im too tired to move..
coz im in pain..
then had dinner wif my family..
then tok on the phone wif saf..
then online n blog..
tats all i did...

im lazy to update so tmr i update again..
bye..
tc

finish skul early today..
wen hm straight..
play wif adam..
veri the tired..
watch tv n how blogging

today at skul alot of ppl nv come..
but skul still okie la..
got hmwk eng but haven do..
later then i do now im lazy..
or tmr then i do..
then tmr got geo test..
haven study to..
haha..
i also dunno la wat im tinkin abt..haha

tat stupid idot guy kol my hse again..
my mum ask me whu the guy..
i told he a crazy guy..
then she say if i wanna make frend choose wisely..
haiyo i also dunno la..
i hate tat guy la..
stupid,...!!!
he tink i wat..
kol me anak sundal la tkde maruah..
wat the hack im so fuck up man..
i hope he will not disturb me agian...

i fight wif my guy juz now in the morning..
tillnow he nv msg me..
so sad..
i noe i hav hurt his feelin but i dun mean it..
im sori..
i miss u..
pls dun be angry wif me..
i kol nv pick up..
haiyo..
i dunno la wat to do..

frends?
do frend kol their frend name..
i love u n care for u..
but somtime u hurt my feelings..
i noe u hav a new frend..
n we r not close..
but is tat the reson for u to treat me lyke tis..
wen u nid me u find me..
wen u dont u put me away..
i hurt u noe..
haiz i also dunno wat to do..
i juz hav to bear wif it la..
but hope it change..
i miss havin u..
but nvm everyone change..
i understand...

tat is my lyfe..
i have to accpt it..
k la tat all for today..
i nid to finish up my skul werk
tata
cya..

today is mon..
got wat abt student dunno wa thingy at hall..
then ss..
the P.E
but nv go P.E coz i nid to do survery thingy..
find at 10.30..
go change show eacher..then go change bck..
lyke stupid lyke tat..
haha
is wanted to sit wif ayun n other but end up ayun alone sit wif us..
hahah..
then ayun n yana nv go math..
the sit wif us ta library..
as juz now i had free peroid..
forget to say abt after recess we play the door at the toilet veri the funny..
hahah..tat fatimah go and started it first...
at library do my karangan..
tok to fatimah abt ytd wat happen..
thne she ask me to ingore hym..
then tok wif ayun n ahhui..
then after tat go outside skul..
after tat fatimah n meera eat ice cream..
the geo lesson it was a slpy lesson n i was lyke blur..
then go mother at the library..
only 14 student come..
the 4n2 guy nv come at all..
the in the library we eat 3 packet of biskut..
all of us lyke nv eat before..eat lyke the thingy no more..
hahah..
but it was fun at the library..
haha
then i wen hm wif meera,,
in th ebus 22 was quite full..
th en reach hm at 6.15pm..then my adam not at hm..
then change clothes eat n do my hmwk then play comp..
but nv online coz using my sis account..
she waittin for her frend to online..
but juz give comment to my friend lor..
tats all..

btw ita wats ur url for ur blog n wat is ur firnedster add>?
sry i lupe arg..

selepas ape terjd tdi...
aku cukup menyesal dan i had enuf of it alrdy..
tdi aku pi alamak chat abih satu bdk jantan ni tk suda kol umah ku..
die ugut ku nk bilg mak aku yg aku tk v n aku pompan sundal..
selmat tdi mak ku pi jb..
aku mintak kak ku act jd mak ku..then dier btl2 ckp tu semua pat kak ku..
then dier ltk fone..
dier pinkir i pompan murah sgt tkde maruah diri pe..
aku skrg thg tkt aku tk nk mak ku tahu..
aku da ckup uat mak kau sedih...
aku malu dgn diri ku ...
aku da tkn masuk alamak lgy..
semua jantan mcm sial...
aku benci laki!!!!!!!!!

skrg aku da cukup menyesal dgn apa selame ni aku prh uat..
aku tidak prh berterima kasih kepade dua2 iba bapa ku...
mereka percaye ku biler kasi ku kuar dgn kwn ku..
tetapi kdg2 ku kuar dgn laki..
aku menyesal membuat perkare yg jijik tu...
aku mahu berubah...aku da cukup hidup mcm gini lgy...
aku tk mahu mama ku tahu..
biarla ni sejarah hitam dlm diri ku..
utk tiada org tahu tentang perkare ni terutama keluarga ku..
ku tidak mahu meraka malu kerana diri ku ni...

ku sedar diri ku siapa...
dlm keluarga ku aku yg selalu uat hal..
bagi mereka masalah semua dari ku..
aku tk sepanadai kak ku..
tetapi itu bkn alasan utk mereka padang rendah terhadap diri ku ni..
ati tknk papa look down on me...
biler papa sendir ai dgn kate2 papa..
it do hurt me lot...
it make me feel useless n wanna give up...
tpy ati nk prove to papa yg ati bole buat..
ati akan try ati punye best utk pass this n level n go to ite..
ati nk prove to papa yg ati pun boley uat tpy ati cume mls..
ati perlukn org bimbing ati...
utk ati kuat kn hati...
mama ati nk mintak maaf selmae ni ati selalu uat mama mara sedih dgn kelakuan ati...
ati skrg sear bahawa ati telah byk sgt berdosa pat mama..
ati tk tahu mcm mane nk tembus semau keslhan ati kepade mama...
yg ati bole buat skrg adalah berubah...
skrg ati nk beruabah seperti dulu...
ati sembayang dgr kate mama tk mls sgt dan kuarng ajar..
tetapi ati perlu pertolangan mama..
ati igt lupe semua bacaan utk solat..
mama boley tolong ati?
ya allah buka kn ati ku ni ya allah..
biarla aku ke jln yg benar...
aku btl2 menyesal n hendak tembus semua dosa2 ku ya allah..
tetapi aku tkt aku tk boleh..
keran skrg aku sibuk dgn skul...
hendak belajar semua balik..
tetapi aku akn cuba sedar upaya ku...
aku tk akn putus asa..
ya allah terangkn ati hamba mu
n tlg la aku utk kejln yg benar ia itu kepade mu...
aku akan mula ni semua dgn besok...
aku da mula halaf semua doa2...
lau aku da sedia aku akn solat balik..
aku mahu buat ni semua sebelum bulan ramadan..
jdi hati aku akn lebih tenang bila mahu ambil n level ku nnti..

mula dari skrg jgk aku tk mahu simpan ape2 rahsia dari mama..
la aku ade masalah aku mahu share dgn mama..
mane tahu mama ley tlg..
lau aku kuar berjumpa dgn siapa pun aku akan bilg mama..
dgn siapa aku berkwn pun aku akan bilg mama..
lau ape2 terjd pat ku mama akn tahu nk cari siapa..
kerana ibu sendiri lebih tahu tentang didi anknya sdiri..

sampai di sini sahaja..
lau ade perkembangan aku ade update lgy..
aku berharap sgt aku ade ati yg kaut utk berubah..
n masalah yg tdi pagy tk akn kembali lgy...
ku tk nk sejarah berulang dua kali...

hye today i got my eng oral..
was so nerous juz now..
but my pics was okla..
i can tok abt it..
n the convesation is okie to...
btw i wanna say all the best for ayun n is..
hope both of u last long kk..
n hapi always..
n also...
ita n her guy are togather for 7 month alrdy..
i hope they r will be hapi n last long wif each other..
even there had hardship togather..
they can overocme it togather..
n ita dun ever giv up or do anythin k silly again..
be hapi kk..

after my oral i wen to pasir ris n make my ezlink kad..
i lost it on wed in the bus sum mre lyke stupid ryte..
haha
im bored at hm...
after n level doin a chalet wif fatimah shaheed n gang,,
juz finsih find info abt differ type pf chalet...
n where is cheaper easy to go n gd place..
haha
i found a few..
tmr i will msg shaheed lor abt wat i found..haha
faster noe everything so later can collect class fund..

hye tmr apit birthday...
juz wish ahhui guy happi advance biirthday for hym..
i realli hope apit n ahhui can last long en he come out they will be hapi togahter..
so my ahhui wont be lonely n sad outside waittin n thinkin abt hym..
both of them ar sweet togahter..


my three good frends r happi wif they guys..
i am glad..
but me haiz..
dunno wat to say la..
hav guy but lyke dun hab..
i duno la..
now i realli want to concentrate on my n level i wanna do well
then can think abt guy or wat so ever la..
haha..
k la tat all for now...
i will blog again nxt tyme kk
tata

hye there...
im bored at hm..
ytd was too bz to blog
haha
btw happi 7 month annivesary to ita n her guy...
i wish them all the best in their relationship..
today at skul was okey la...
had 7period of math..
was dead bored n tired sia..
i hav nothing much to say coz there nothing much happen..
hmm
wat to say..stop here tata
nxt tyme i blog proper;y kkays

Hey..
it has been realli a long tyme since i blog shey..
i dunno y im lyke too bz to blog..haha
for the holi i cant use the comp tat much tats y..
now skul hav started..
the 2 week had pass by fast n everyday goin hm later..
lyke so sian shey..
haiz wat do..
haha

i wanna say sry to my fwen out there lyke iita..
sori i nv update tat long
jgn mara...

btw i hav change my blogskin..
is it nice?
oke or not?
gimme comment...
so i can edit things or change the skin again...
i was bored nv go out tat day so i change ytd..
but was lazy to post again
haha..

today ish monday n it is youth day..
i hav no skul..
yahoo.. can stay at hm..
but i nid to study..
there alot of test coming up..
my geo math..n other..
argh..!!!!!!!!
i am so stress out..
dunno wat to do..
tis year i want to do well in eveythingy....
this comin fri i am havin my eng N level oral...
then the followin week is my malay N level oral
haiyo...
wat to do..
i nid sumone to hlp me out in my studies..
study wif me lyke sumone clever..
hahaha
so if i got question the person can ans all of it n get corret haha..
im am becomin more siao..
haha

btw i had a guy alrdy...
haha
but not alot of ppl noe cuz i dunno if i can last long wif hym or not..
so i juz keep it low profile..
the ppl hu noe is readin the blog..
ita,ayun,n ct...
haha
can i last long wif hym?
hmmm
tat is a one million qustion for me to ans..
hahah
i was wif hym on 18062008
so wish me gud lluck kkaya..

wat else i hav to say?
i also dunno la..
today i wanna go out but i tink i better stay at hm study for my ow gud haha..

hey i hav watch hancock..
it was so nice n fun..
i lyke the show so much hahaah
ppl whu haven see it must see it..
if not u loose out hahaa..
kkays la tats all for now...
bye
tc